Life Is Interesting

To be honest; life is painful. Almost every night I have a dream about my ex that consumes me throughout the day. I worry about him finding me. I dream about him showing up at my kids' school and taking them away from me. I live in fear most of the time. My stomach is in constant knots and sometimes I feel like my kids would be better off elesewhere simply because I fear what will happen if they are with me. I wonder when this fear will ever go away.

I don't care what happens to me, I just want them to be safe.....

Before I go any further in my blogging adventure, I would like to ask my friends to join my facebook group for ending violence against women. I work 2 days a week with a very sweet girl who is suffering the same problems that I had with my ex husband. Her issues prompted me to create a group on facebook to help end violence against women. That is actually the name of the group.

If you could join and help out in any way you can, I will be forever grateful! Helping her and others like her helps me!

Long Time No See!

I think the last post I did was shortly after the twins' first birthday. So, well over a year now. And what a year it has been. If I were to go into it now, I could post for the next 2 hours. I won't do that now, because I do need to get to bed and get my girls up in the morning for school. However, I do plan to start writing again because it is such a healthy outlet for me, and I have missed it. I hope that those who used to read me will come back to me.

I have also allowed Grandma Dawn (my mom) to go public again. My fear over the past year has been my ex husband's ability to access info about me and my girls. But I need to let go of that fear and move on. I know that my mom has sense enough to not give out info on her blog that will put me or my girls in danger!

So here we go. The blogging adventure starts for me once again.